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If you spread AI slop, I'll be very, very disappointed
Also #nobots

Autistic with ADHD and some other F-codes.
Other attributes tend to include 'a' as a prefix too.
Active in autistic and mental health peer support stuff so nudges from autistic peers welcomed!

Toots in Savonian or English, and very rarely in some other languages.
Toots disappear after some weeks, depending how confident I feel.
Still haven't decided on my pronouns.

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

So, my autistic folks, bit the bullet and called the mental health clinic to make an appointment. And once again bumped into the discrepancy that my scores and even the actual situation are pretty bad, but I'm pretty nonchalant talking about it, even joking with the nurse. Obviously, this causes all sorts of problems, as one's demeanor doesn't fit the seriousness of the matter.

I know part of it is that I just process stuff through humor, and some might say maybe it's camouflaging or whatnot, but another possibility hit me here. I've noticed that when I'm taken seriously in this kind of context (or any context for that matter), I get positively giddy, I'm so happy about it, because it doesn't happen that often. Is *that* the thing here? Because I sure didn't joke with the social worker who sneeringly did not take me seriously yesterday.

Are we just so starved of being taken seriously and listened to, that when someone finally does, no matter how su... banged up we are mentally, we get giddy with joy? Discuss.

#ActuallyAutistic

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
Yle tavoittaa K-rekan myyjän päivässä, mutta suomalaista oikeistopoliitikkoa eivät sitten ikinä.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Ok, applied physicists of fedi, I have a question? Why is it, when rinsing stuff in the sink, no matter what it is, no matter the shape, be it convex, concave, flat, tubular, whatnot, and seemingly no matter the angle you hold it at, it always directs the water stream right at your crotch? Which is even more impressive when you realize the sink is waist-high :blobcatwhat:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
The autistic short-circuit Oooh someone's giving away A Train Thing on fedi! Or are they giving it away? They don't mention it, but I'd assume so, considering... It probably would need some arrangements for delivery though. And that would mean I have to communicate with that person. Maybe they will misunderstand me and then the whole thing will become a embarrassing hassle for both. What if I do hassle them for it and then don't want it in the end after all? I probably don't really want it after all, so better just cut out all the hassle and forget about it. I'm going to brush my teeth now. #ActuallyAutistic
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
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@Stoori@polyglot.city @magdalenahai@mstdn.social @miiakosonen@mastodontti.fi En ole kyseiseen järjestöön mitenkään yhteydessä, mutta just törmäsin, että NAMilla on tulossa webinaari some- ja digiriippuuvuudesta, mikä on avoin ja ilmainen kaikille: https://www.namry.fi/ajankohtaista/
namry.fi

Ajankohtaista – NAM Neurokirjon ammattilaiset Ry

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Mental health stuff
So the doc was pretty good, took me seriously, took their time with me (we actually went like 15 minutes overtime even). I guess me being autistic got lost in the sauce a bit again but that's not new and just not having to hear "you don't look autistic" from a doc was a win, but I'm a bit worried we're going down the "lets treat this with meds as depression and anxiety" route again. But at least the doc agreed I would benefit from longer term support from the mental health services. And I might've fucked up my brain a tad with the medication I've had, so might be a good call to check on that a bit. Summarum, summarum, they ended up making an urgent referral to a pdoc at the acute psychiatry dept., which means I should get an appointment within a week. Whether that happens is anyone's guess though. What worries me is that they didn't really catch on to my needs for support from the social work side of things, but I guess that'd be the psych department's turf anyway in our system, not the gen med's. So, now to figure out my spoon situation for my groups and what to do with them. After a nap.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@Stoori@polyglot.city @iju@mastodon.social Ja sitten vielä tämä ikivihreä c) "no mene järjestämään jotain"
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

Tuli ajettua sitten suht rajusti seinään, puskin itseni jo liian pitkälle aiemmin ja just kun olin että höllään räjähti byrokratiaa käsiin taas. Viisi päivää bentsodissokoomaa alkais varmaan riittää, mutta mennäkkö kriisikeskuksen kautta vai suoraan yrittää päästä miepä-puolelle (ei siis potilassuhdetta nyt missään). Toki muitakin vaihtoehtoja on harkittu, mutta jätetään ne vielä toistaiseksi. Ai niin, sossussakin kävin tänään ihan paikan päällä, mutta sieltä naurettiin kirjaimellisesti ulos.

Lähinnä mietin, että mitä kautta vähimmällä autisti->allisti -tulkkauksella pääsisi, niin että oisi mahis että joku ottaisi vakavissaankin tilanteen. Toisaalta, kellonaika taisi valita tien, vaikka vielä kerkiäisi huomiselle varata myös Kriisikeskukseen etäaikoja. Kriisikeskus ja miepä siis tuttuja muista kaupungeista mutta ei täältä. Kaupunki siis Kuopio.

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@henrik@eliitin-some.fi @VPSuuronen@eliitin-some.fi Ite legit halusin tehdä Fallout-musikaalin joskus. Alkuperäiseen, ei tule yhtään pelinäytelmää mieleen kyllä.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@henrik@eliitin-some.fi Pitkä on hautajaiskiertue sitten! :meowsip:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Onks Liski et al kaivanut jo Orvon mediasparrauslaskut? Ollut varmaan aika intensiivinen kurssi kun näin kauan kesti. :blobcatcoffee:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

The nurse at the clinic was wonderful, went over and beyond to try and get me an appointment, but alas what with austerity and whatnot, the queues were long. So they booked me a doctor's appointment for tomorrow instead, to speed things up. Went online to see the details, and the reason they had given for the appointment was "suicidal thoughts", and nothing else. This is going to be... interesting :meow_nervous2:

(And yeah, I know there's more notes in the system somewhere (and it's not *totally* wrong, per se), but I also got a semicolon tattooed on my hand :meow_smile_sweat: ).

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
Replying to
@jussi_og@mementomori.social Viimeksi tänään uimahallilla
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@eoinmorris@mastodon.ie There's definitely the connection aspect there, but additionally I think for me it's a feeling that "someone's in my corner", which I think gives a bit of an extra kick there too. I rarely have anyone there, in a practical way, emotional support gets one only so far, especially if one's emotions are on totally own their own scale... :meow_nervous2: But I do recognize that starvation. I don't connect with people easy, as oh so many people have found out (I'm sorry to those gotten dinged by that) but if I do connect, I can be a bit overwhelming, which is then confusing to people as when the connection deepens, I actually pull away and become more serious and restrained (aaaaand sorry to those who've been dinged by that).
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

:meow_sweat:

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

So, when the FantaFuhrer finally kicks the bucket, how long you figure they weekend-at-bernies *him*?

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago

What is it with Raspberry Fisherman's Friend and panic attacks? I can easily scarf down a tin of them and they help with the panic side of things. Anxiety still needs something more potent.

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago

What's the Ceiling Cat equivalent of a saint? Whatever it is, Patrick Loller should be anointed as one, maybe the Saint of Autistic Nourishment. Just made a huge pot of his autism chow (chili, it's chili), took about 30 mins, the ingredients aren't overly expensive, and it will nourish me for days! :meow_melt_thumbs_up:

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago

RE: @y6nH@im-in.space

Se kylmä ei ollutkaan se rinki ympärillä :meowsip:

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@jarizleifr@mstdn.social @unhottu@todon.nl Tuntuu että kaikkien häsien, ainakin englannin kielisten, seuraaminen alkaa olla aika turhauttavaa, neurokirjonhäsiinkin tulee aika paljon jotain sloppia ja shadyjä tilejä postaamaan.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
This is the first time in my life that I've had to reboot a remote control. Not the device it controls, the remote itself.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Ok so... a problem. Autism chow (it's chili, it's just vegan chili) has become my survival food. And... I have somewhat of an Irate Tummy Malady. And reflux too. :blobcat_thisisfine:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@unhottu@todon.nl Mitenkäs se menikään, jos elää tarpeeksi pitkään, näkee miten sankareistaan tulee roistoja.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago

This was an interesting interview.

"Doctorow comments on AI’s “bad unit economics” and the connection between automation and labor. “When labor drives automation, it’s usually in service to making the product better, and when capital drives automation, it’s usually in service to making more of the product,” says Doctorow."

https://www.democracynow.org/2026/6/25/reverse_centaur_doctorow

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago

I swear to Ceiling Cat, I need to change my shorts more often than my underwear nowadays... :ablobcatblink:

#EatingAtTheComputer

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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@krummi@gts.u8.is Better late than never but damn do I wish the same.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@ancient_catbus@jorts.horse Damn, now I have Barenaked Ladies playing in my head for the rest of the day... :meow_nervous2:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
If I keep unfollowing everyone who shares AI slop, I soon will have nobody to follow... :meowcry:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
You can't make an omelette without lobbing off some heads :blobcatcoffee:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
I'd call it a little win, in spite of absolutely horrendous anxiety, made it through the day without meds (will take them to sleep though, I'm not *that* brave), without going totally bonkers, and managed to finish my first slog-through of the piano score for Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence. Fuck this shit, fuck this life, fuck this weekend, and nevertheless :meow_melt_thumbs_up:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Well, that'll put some graphite in your pencil! :meowsip:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
Just because you've managed to do it, doesn't mean I can. #VeryVagueToot
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
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@jonne@mastodontti.fi Se on.... Outolukija :meowsip:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
Replying to on jontka.fi
@tommi@jontka.fi @pahoittelemme@mastodontti.fi Punalappukaljat when? :blobcatthinkOwO:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Tired: Smiling through the pain Wired: Vacuuming through the pain
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@miiko@social.darxxide.eu @jarizleifr@mstdn.social @unhottu@todon.nl Joo, varsinkin botit näyttää suoltavan kaikki mahdolliset häsät postaukseen mitä ovat tekstin perusteella poimineet.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
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@quidcumque@rheinhessen.social I've heard some say that with AuDHD folks, the opposing traits mask each other until they don't, and that's why so many of us end up being late-diagnosed. But I don't have any scientific backing for that. But anecdotally what I've heard there's some legs on that.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Ok, newly acquired pro-by-experience tip to my autistic folks. When corresponding with the authorities (and possibly anyone else non-autistic), whatever it is, no matter how complicated issue it is, just send them *one* question at the time, preferably with as little background and other explanatory additions as possible . No "Here's the situation, should do x and what are the ramifications, and if not, what should I do instead. If something else, is there anything I need to take in account?". Just ask, "should I do x", and when they reply, send the next question. Annoying as hell for sure, they prolly get annoyed with you too, but seems like be it doctors or clerks or whatnot, if you give them a bunch of questions and scenarios, they pick one and get hung up on that one, and it's probably not the most important one you need to get answered. #TheMoreYouKnow #ActuallyAutistic
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
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@emily_rugburn@lgbtqia.space Also "US couldn't build a plane like this", dude, where you think Boeing is, somewhat famously, located?
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
My fingers are now spoiled and I will refuse to touch icky metal strings to produce sounds ever again :blobcatcoffee:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@valoisa@eliitin-some.fi @miiamustang@eliitin-some.fi @jussi_og@mementomori.social It's actually fairly simple, barely an inconvenience! :meow_giggle:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Some years ago I set myself "office hours" to help with my anxiety. So I have a totally separate email for all the bureaucracy, and I only have access to it on my computer, and I have to go and check it, I don't get notifications for new mails on it anywhere. And I'd only go and check it during my "taking care of stuff" slots, and for example never check it on weekends, so I had some reprieve built-in in case there was some crap going on. That system broke now with the latest crap, and my brain is now obsessively latched on checking that email. Which is an especially delicious catch-22, as if I don't check it, I'm anxious, and if I do check it, there's two possible outcomes, either there's nothing there, in which case I'm OK for like five minutes, and then start getting anxious again. Or if there is something there, I'll crash for the rest of the day. Layer on top of that my existing fear of having to deal with authorities (and getting those dreaded "you have a message in YourAccount" messages)... How the heck do I break this and get back to my office hours? I know I can't force myself to do so, that'd make it much worse. Distractions don't work on me right now too well either, so can't go and just play a game or something. I'm pretty much at my wits end with all this stuff.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
Got a call that I got an urgent appointment at the psych clinic for tomorrow. Been relief stimming so much after that I don't need to go to the gym today. But I'm still gonna go an swim tho... :meow_nervous2:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Ok, ok, we can work with this :blobcatthinkOwO:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Well, at least Apple just force-uploaded that U2 album, they didn't autoplay it :meow_giggle:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
Especially for my non-English-speaking compatriots, name the English words that you thought for the longest mean something totally different than they actually do. Me start: sublime - something quite meh
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 1mo ago
If smelling burnt toast is a stroke, what the heck is smelling vinegar? :blobcatthinking2:
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
For my communication autists there, a vigil for the last US GSM network ongoing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BdoE3biaHU
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 2mo ago
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@valoisa@eliitin-some.fi Miusta tämmöiset mittaukset pitäisi kieltää lailla, koska näistä ei ole demokratialle mitään hyötyä, päinvastoin, saadaan niistä väännettyä just tämmöisiä eri narratiiveja. Kannatus mitataan vaaleissa ja sen pitäisi riittää.
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define: papabear @undefined_variable@mementomori.social
· 3mo ago
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@Stoori@polyglot.city How could this ever go wrong? "Neinneineinein, zey are not climate protesters, put the OC spray away, Hans!"
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