Damon

So like. As the testosterone starts to really reshape my body and my living situation lends me more freedom in my gender expression, I am appalled at the street harassment I've been receiving. These are the comments/behaviors I've gotten in the last 11 days: "Must be nice to declare yourself a pedophile in public" *completely enraged stare, mumbled swearing under the breath. If I didnt know any better I'd assume she was literally cursing me with some kind of dark enchantment* *I've lost count of how many people have just stared and laughed at me, usually older cishet white men* *a slur in french canadian slang* *someone praying to God at me* "Just so you know brother the fuzz gives it away" referring to my baby beard "Something something FUCKING LIBERAL" Now. Obviously thats all Not Okay but what stands out to me is that I'm being harassed like I'm trans fem, not trans masc. I dont know, it's interesting because we love to debate at length and often to a community damaging degree who's more oppressed or othered or who experiences more violence and obviously this is regionally hyperspecific to me but in my experience? When I presented more masc with my now apparently readable masc body, I was left the fuck alone. Even when my body wasnt as obviously masc I was only harassed if I was doing some kind of PDA with one of my AFAB partners. But now I get lashouts from the men I confuse or the women who's puritanical womanhood I threaten, it's eye opening. What if I actually was trans fem?

@faithisleaping@anarres.family my whole thing with passing culture is that it just upholds cishet normativity and in a roundabout way, a eurocentric patriarchy and like. As a queer person.. Why would you want to do that? Other than the conditional privileges, of course.

I dress emo because I only look good when I look unimpressed.

Look. If you are on T and suspect you have vaginal atrophy talk to your doctor and just take the damn estrogen. I know estrogen is scary but it won't affect your bottom growth or T levels and you will feel...so much better. Trust me... Just do it.

Update: This is my entire identity now.

@faithisleaping@anarres.family yeahh, I get that. I was extremely lucky and got saddled with a queer cis man when I got my face mole removed and I guess he just knew every queer health practitioner and referred me, my literal gay angel. Also getting T is so much more annoying so I feel your pain. I will say once you see the benefit the dysphoria of taking the unpreferred hormone kinda fades away, at least it did for me. Everyone needs both yknow

It wasn't the "whoopsie" kind of misgendering either it was the "I fundamentally disbelieve your personhood" kind of misgendering. And just.. Jesus christ. Sometimes, with my family, its almost fine, other times its absolutely terrible. Today was absolutely terrible.

@JaxVent@lgbtqia.space if you're eating healthier, youre probably eating a more fibrous diet, making you poop more. Also the reduction in stress from no longer being ill also helps you poop better. But like, Congrats

Chat I did it, I am volunteering at the trans library as we speak okay, I'm so proud of myself, this time last year I was too panicked to even think of appearing here.

@mayintoronto@beige.party I have seen watermelons for almost 20$ where I live, this robinhood of melons is a folk hero.

@captainvellalives@lgbtqia.space thank yoou 😌 its been pretty chill so far