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Cai
@Cai@gamepad.club
mastodon 4.7.3Formerly @Cai@lgbtqia.space before the Great Geoblocking(tm)
they/them, he/him; transmasc non-binary bean
Book nerd, avid gamer, papercrafter, lover of sci-fi, and a helicopter parent to two cats. Writing and sending snail mail is a favored pastime, as is creative journaling.
Living in the NL to avoid the shitstorm in the US and studying Sign Language Linguistics 💖
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Joined October 23, 2025
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PFP: A smiling Viera man from FFXIV looks up and off to one side, bright eyed and happy. His hair is long and grey with white streaks.
OK, so next week is Bahamut Day anniversary from ye old 'de days and prior, so I've gotta renew my sub in honor of that ✨ If any #frendedex folks (or game pals in general!) want to meet up to say hello, hmu! Does not have to be in the anni, to be clear. Just...soonish, since I'm have a dub again 
@KosmikrosSisters@masto.ai Happy Bahamut Anniversary to you and to every pal from the 'Dex! The Frendedex period of ffxiv was one of the best in all my years of playing, and I formed so many friends and memories because of that initial little Bahamut gathering 😁
No matter where everyone is or what they're up to, I am grateful to have all of you in my orbit, and to be somewhere in yours ✨ Hope everyone gets to do something joyful today ❤️
Hang in there, everybunny 🥕 💖 🐉
I've been hovering over the renew sub option for a week but haven't pulled the trigger. Why can I justify a dinner and drink catching up with a friend, but not a sub to a game I love dearly? Lol
All set to give my final presentation in my sign class tomorrow, teaching everyone about Japanese tea farms. I'm bringing three teas for everyone to try, too.
Feels very self indulgent to get to talk about one of my happiest periods of life in perhaps my very favorite class in a language I love learning 😭
When is the proper time to renew my #ffxiv sub? HRMMMMMMMMMMMM
I still haven't played through Dawntrail, lol
Next weekend I get to meet an old man kitty cat who's gonna need some feeding and visiting while his humans are away.
To say I've already set my week up to be overwhelming, knowing there is a cat at the end of it as a reward, would not be an exaggeration.
Finally visited Caius again and took some very important screenshots to commemorate the occasion
I made some widdle guys but haven't decided what to do with them yet
Whoops I'm in one of those states where a lot of things need to happen very soon, and although none of them require particularly difficult next steps, I am frozen in inaction because of how many there are to do.
C'mon, brain. We can do this 😩 😤
Bestie's boss is an AI jackoff and is now suggesting that they should train the AI bot he wants to implement. Bestie is the online customer service rep. Their boss is suggesting they train their replacement.
Actually gonna cry because I loved this manga so much, and a reboot anime is something I'm unabashedly excited for
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTsk34ipPw8
New Magic Knight Rayearth - Anime's Teaser Reveals | October Debut
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Also, first time at a movie theater with an intermission, and that was fun!
Living here has made me realize that, with the exception of a three month period in Japan, and a few years in my early days as a first time BA student, I haven't felt safe and happy anywhere my entire adult life. Until here 🥲
All the more reason to cling to this place as much as I can, and do everything in my power not to be dragged back into the hellscape I'm currently free from. It's not looking great honestly. I've got no income. Too many uncertainties. But going back is my worst nightmare
I don't know what it is that is preventing me from joining the queer gym here. I have friends there, there's a workout specifically designed for transmasc folks to work in upper body building, and it's really close by. The price is always a concern, but they have some volunteer options to help reduce the cost.
Whyyyy am I so hesitant to join? Is it fear of commitment? Lingering bad memories from gyms? Brain, please enlighten me. 🥲
Nothing like US taxes to fan the flaming desire to renounce citizenship once and for all
I have had a whole hell of a week in just the past two days. Here's hoping the weekend is one full of ZZZs
Idly looking at my finances from the US after encountering more and more folks here whose perspective is "if you're from the US, you should have the money to emigrate freely."
I was making 33% above min. wage, working 40 hours/wk. My rent equalled 3/4 of my monthly income 😅 I literally would not have survived without a second income - add to that food, insurance, phone/internet/utilities, medical debt payments and credit cards and oof.
US still didn't consider me under the poverty line, though
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I was the sibling who managed all the other social media presences, so it's sort of my responsibility to take this one down. But I don't want to go through the pain of finding her login info and shit again. And I'm heart sore from seeing her About section, which she wrote herself and is a little nugget of her voice. It's easier when it's a corporate sounding explanation, but he made hers personal and it hurts to read
The unfortunate part for me about being so well informed regarding my visa is that I tend to know more than the people I meet who I want advice from 🥲
My little bunny brain is overloaded. On the one hand, partner is having a BUNCH of GI tests to make sure their chronic illness is
- In check and
- The only one they have
Scans so far are promising and bloodwork just came back normal!
On the other hand, my dad is super sick and told me he had an asthma attack so bad he almost didn't make it to his inhaler the other day. And I am so far away and so incapable of helping, it scares me. Ugh
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I'm so heartsick when I listen to them talk about meeting a "system," and realizing they're some fucker on the internet who watched Silence of the Lambs or American Psycho or Split and thought uwu I could do that, too, with literally no history of trauma, no understanding of what DID is, and no interest in seeking help. Years of their life have been either desperate confusion at symptoms and feeling crazy, or spent doing intensive therapy to try and overcome a deepset trauma response.
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And these little shits are wracking up views and attention for something that isn't theirs, will never be theirs, and are simultaneously spreading absolute misinformation to both the external world and to people who legitimately have DID and will be either persuaded that they don't, because their experiences don't align with these parasites', or that they shouldn't seek treatment, because it makes them Cool and Quirky! Never mind the incredible suffering they may be experiencing.
UGH. 3/3
Staring down the daunting but real possibility I'm about to delve into content creation
Not a great feeling to reach out to a former classmate about a mutual classmate's passing, but I'd like to know if I was no longer studying but one of my former people passed. No one really knows what to do in this situation, so we're all just trying to spread the word and communicate that there is a student-lead commemoration coming up.
It'll be my first time attending a memorial service in the Netherlands. And the first once period since my mom's
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@gougoudoggo They went over well! And I got a lot of questions about how I brewed them not to bitter. たのしかった 
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I hate the very particular thump-thump my heart does when I'm paying bills and tallying how much money I owe. Someday I hope I can have a regular heartbeat when it's bills time. Someday
Doing this again 🥲 Of all the components, ofc it was the most expensive one damaged. Jury is still out on the motherboard, which was somehow so violently jostled, all of its screws literally snapped, leaving it floating in the case, held in place by its cables. It boots without the GPU attached, though, so I'm hopeful the mobo is ok, just bruised and rattled.
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@anarchaeopteryx I did it! Checked one thing off the least and took the first step of the next 🎉
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I now additionally have the technology to make them magnets 😁
Something about B or C horror movies and getting embroidery DONE is a match made in heaven 😂
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@nora@blob.love Although it is afternoon for me, I am having coffee, and so joining in on morning ritual ☀️🌻 ☕ Good morning!
I needed a way to make transporting my bow hands free, so I got crafty today. All I began with was the linen sock the bow arrived with. One trip to the craft store and several hours later, I have connectors and a strap! I haven't really done any completed photos yet, and the strap isn't even in the photo set I did take. But it's late and I'm going to sleep, so further photos will have to wait 😅
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@bearmine@gamepad.club I don't know this person or their blog, but this step-by-step they posted is essentially the method I use for crafting notebooks and sketchbooks:
https://tinyurl.com/3tuwarcb
You can also search for saddle stitch and long stitch binding if you want some less intensive but still hand-stitched options! There are a million different techniques and I say choose the one that will get you binding and go from there
My PC lives again!!! 🔥 🔥 🔥
Update on my busted PC: made it through a frustrating back and forth to submit a damage report, and the post here has accepted it and promised to refund me the import fees on the goods. Which is great, because I was already in the midst of challenging those. No matter now: full refund.
Next we have to wait for the USPS to actually do something. Their estimate is 45 days before they get to it. We'll see. It's an insurance claim on the goods now, which could go either way. I'm not very hopeful.