TeaBeast

For a while, I've been thinking I'm just not good enough to keep around. I'm just a stepping stone until something better arrives. And I was right.

We broke up in the best possible terms. But I'm afraid I'll never forgive myself for not being a perfect partner.

I'm glad I experienced love. But I'm not sure I'll ever want to trade a potentially ever-lasting friendship for a fragile, soul-crushing relationship. Not again.

Maybe he wanted someone whose light was stronger than their darkness. That hasn't been me for a long time. I tried to give him as much joy as I could. To arrange nice vacations, birthdays and anniversaries. To always be there for him. I never used my words against him. But I constantly used them against myself. How much joy can you really get from someone who can never heal?

I'm seeing a psychiatrist this Friday, but I'm not exactly filled with hope. I don't see this year or this life getting any better.

me, my bf and the local furry gang at the xmas carnival <3

I'm finally the complete enby archetype: polyam blue-haired bisexual barista n.n

Apple? Making something relatively inexpensive and repairable? Did three ghosts just visit Tim Cook?
https://youtu.be/5k7Lv7f-5CQ?si=xHVe2zVZyRaPM7lx

Meritocracy: "Follow your dreams!!"
Everyone else: "Will you show support? Make sure we have enough time and resources?"
Meritocracy: "Ohh, no, we'll punish you all the way through"
Everyone else: "Then why would..."
Meritocracy: "We'll look down on you if you don't"
Everyone else: "But..."
Meritocracy: "Or if you try and fail"