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Targea Caramar 🇨🇴
@targea_caramar@sunny.garden
mastodon 4.7.3I'm a struggling junior architect and amateur illustrator/photographer. Trying to fall in love with the process.
Some fun facts:
Cis guy | Kinsey 2 | Zillenial | In a LTR | GSD owner | Former keyboard player | Linux user | EN-ES bilingual | Nudist | Agnostic | Patricia Taxxon fan
I'm not good at all at this social media stuff. This is supposed to be a personal blog I guess?
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Joined November 14, 2022
Current day job:
Sort-of architectural assistant (?) for a small architectural practice
Is Targea a grown-up architect yet?:
Nope
Got "dared" by a friend to make a circus-sona based on some personality-test type prompt. This is the result. Never been a character design genius - It ain't much, but it's honest work.
I've been training in a group which has a lot of kids and teenagers lately, and. Well. I don't think I'd ever interacted with people that much younger than me in any meaningful capacity.
I'm uh. Starting to realize I'm not as immune to the psychological effects of realizing the irreversible passage of time as I thought I was. I'm not 16 anymore, or 20, or 25, and I never will be again. They see me as I saw people my current age back then and I'm positively freaking out about it. I've always been slow to warm up to people but with them there's an extra layer that is new to me: a downwards generational gap. *Freaks out harder*
I'm not even actually old and I'm already "I used to be it"-ing lmao. I always knew I'd start getting older in theory because that's how time works but it's dawning on me harder than ever just from the contrast with these kids.
I know I'm kinda shouting into the void here but if anyone has any insight I'd be more than glad to hear it
Got my first uncredited repost of a comic, on r/nudism of all places. Look ma, I made it!
I definitely don't know when to quit. Still trudging on and on and on and on and o
On the bad side, I had to spend my night cooking and meal prepping before I could have any dinner. On the bright side, I got rewarded with a fresh dinner for my troubles
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@mynameistillian@plush.city I'd never heard of that, but one google search later... Yah I see it lmao
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@renudist@sunny.garden Aw, you're too kind. Hopefully you'll be right not too long into the future. Thanks for listening/responding, it's always appreciated
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@renudist@sunny.garden Mind you, I also remember there were many people in different stages of adulthood I really liked back then. It's just they were all so... Charismatic and personable
Daddy issues? Mommy issues? No sir, my thing is Older Sister issues. My psyche yearns for a challenging yet nurturing friendship with an older, more experienced female mentor figure who can help me get a footing when faced with the uncertain and the unfamiliar
The human knee is some Bull Shit #chondromalacia
Finally found it in me to go on with this. Yay.
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@krinslife@sunny.garden I guess you're right, I may be overthinking it on account of the age difference. Thanks for the advice!
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@renudist@sunny.garden You are right on that! It's true that you either get old or die young, and I ain't too keen on dying anytime soon. Getting old is a privilege, thanks for reminding me of that
Maybe I'm just freaking out because I want to be on good terms with them, but while at their age I was just awkward and came across as standoffish, now it's that *and also* I feel like the image below, constantly, and I remember how running into that felt back then, and I hate it lmao
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@fen@yiff.life What do you think Archimedean solids are?
Just think of the inherent eroticism of the rhombicosidodecahedron