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Cyberpunk RED Session Zero tonight, running it for four people who have never touched TTRPGs before as my own first time with the system.
i always forget the notes it brings up in me of primary school wanting your friends to like playing games with you enough to want to play more.
wait, if i GM a cyberpunk game then not only can i put Natasha Lyonne in cyberpunk, i can put a whole posergang of Natasha Lyonne in cyberpunk and have them all arguing with each other in a bar.
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the reason cis run gender clinics were built was out of fear that we would do it ourselves and out of their control.
that theft wont be righted until we return to doing it ourselves out of their control.
trans doctors, trans therapists, trans counsellors, trans lawyers, trans teachers, trans families.
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we wont be free until we run our clinics
Nathan Fielder? huh. Ok yeah not surprising.
Im late to the party by a month or so apparently but if you havent seen it you should watch the modern-but-throwback trans highschool romcom movie She's the He.
If you ever asked why there isnt more trans people playing themselves before transition, or trans people playing cis people, or gay people playing straight people or just an entirely queer cast playing everyone. This is that film. Its super adorable.
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because gender clinics run by cis doctors is like trying to get your Healthcare from Platos Allegory of the Cave
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"they're a lot harder to look after you know" is probably the funniest line given to me by one of the two psychs i had to see in order to get my own government mandated vagina, delivered in a manner that was attempting to heavily dissuade
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the Gender Clinics were invented and put in place in New York and London, because after Christine, there were thousands of us coming out of the woodwork, contacting doctors to ask if they could get hormones, and doctors were shrugging and saying why not, and they were terrified that if they didnt find a way to funnel us and slow us down, it might be a torrent and never stop.
There was no "real trans" and "fake trans", they just invented criteria so they could output safe traditional women.
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anything that diverges from Good Wife is deviant. The trans woman has to want to have sex with their husband, imagined or real, because that would make him happy.
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just to addendum this now, because i forget that its worthwhile repeating stuff ive posted a lot of times before because internet posts are ephemeral.
This isnt conjecture, the doctors deciding they would narrow down the transition criteria to only trans women who were unsexual, passive, self hating and most able to quietly pass into straight society without causing ripples is catalogued history - because those doctors were worried their clinics would be shut down if they let us all transition
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it was intended to be a temperaroy safety measure to make sure they could help as many as possible because of backlash to Christine Jorgensen. But by tightening the criteria, it lead to trans women passing notes on how to pass that criteria, which lead to an endless cold war between both sides passed down from doctor to doctor and trans girl to trans girl.
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and then she has to have no sexual desires of her own in the meantime. That, mixed with general self loathing is the ideal for a psychologist.
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What was a temporary measure was never lifted, and because of how poorly regarded the trans medical field is, the quality of what sort of doctor would choose willingling to go into it lead to a downward trajectory from medical mavericks looking to be at the edge of modern science to those with saviour complexes, those with sexual daliances, and those who felt the trans menace at the gate needed to be contained
How Sex Changed by Joanne Meyerowitz is probably the best insight into the history
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id go one further to say, we need trans staffed clinics that are physically part of trans community spaces.
a newly out baby should be coming to such a space to get access to everything. Meeting people, getting to learn, getting to begin thinking about their choices regarding medical transition and what might be right for them while also hanging out with those who have already been there done that.
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all youre doing is making yourself shitter at everything
HRT SCIENCE
So going through some HRT supply issues with my GP, i decided to take the advantage to do a little bit of self-guinea pig testing.
Using estradot patches (brand of estradiol hemihydrate patches) that were 14 months past their displayed sell by date for a blood test.
Result came back exactly the same as last year when using in date patches.
704 pmol last year
706 pmol this year
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medical clinics need to stop being this orbital thing that are outside of our control, they need to be in the heart of our community physically.
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i love when Bob Ross turns to the camera and says "Hey SquirrelFucker27 thanks for the bits"
the slow continual drip of people realising Showgirls is a good movie.
hidey ho, kermit de crimes here
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how my body works is a combination of chaos of various transhuman changes done to it. How the pipes connect, how the blood flows, how the hormones interact, none of this is known or covered. I am the only person who can infer how it works, and i cant look inside my body to see where things are, i dont even know where the pee comes out. It is a magic form.
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artist is Jonathan Zawada, who they also worked with as the lead designer on their third album (We Will Always Love You). He does amazing typography and 3d work so im really excited to see hes back again.
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More magazine covers from the fake Takumi Digital Archives
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@JessTheUnstill and they dont have the ability to understand the situation, they can try to imagine it, but they wont live it. Or in my case regarding the person who told me "vaginas are a lot of work you know", they might turn out to be closeted trans and have all the baggage of internalized transphobia stuff going on
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i want a world where tv shows are run into the ground over 13 seasons.
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@Dangerous_beans@aus.social they were literally terrified that they might be witnessing the beginning of the collapse of sex. They where sweating bullets about what the ceiling might be in terms of percentage of men who would turn into women, or if there was a ceiling at all
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@Callanbellwether they're not like normal cats, this breed is very tempramental!
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@riley yes absolutely, there was no upside to go into trans medicine for a cis doctor, you only go into it if its your last chance, or if you have alterior motives
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seems to be building around Memory Loss / False Memories from Nostalgia and the idea of Kenopsia as the word to describe the feeling of loss when stood in a large abandoned space that should be full of people.
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@riley It was self serving and aggrandizing in the manner of scientists pushing the boundaries and seeing themselves as performing miracles, but for a brief moment it was one of the only times we've ever had doctors viewing transition as something other than an act of pity and charity.
constantly looking at the Angine de Poitrine drummer with ever narrowing eyes like .. are you 100% sure you're not Louis Cole?
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and so i am the eminent expert of my body. There is literally only one like it.
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and the new Avalanches logo for this era which pretty certain is also Zawada's work.
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my favourite part of Baby Steps mind you is that its the living embodiment of the statement "Dont give the trans girl the aux"
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one surgeon might be able to give a definitive answer of where he put something, but he has no experience of how it works. I have experience of how things work but must rely on guesses and assumptions.
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@sexybenfranklin@smores.town yeah, font search apps arent even registering it as a font
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@sexybenfranklin@smores.town i thiiink its made for the project, Zawada seems to make quite a few fonts for his projects
The Watergirls - The Whole of the Moon
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@af@dataare.cool absolutely 100% Werner Herzog is my favourite muppet