rachael

i feel like despite seven years of this i havent made any meaningful progress toward not being seen as a man. when most of the people in my city treat me like a man even when im very clearly presenting fem, it hurts :( im constantly reminded that ive done a terrible job of chasing my transition goals, and without the recognition of others im effectively still living as a man. going out in public is just an exercise in highlighting everything im dysphoric about and everything that leads others to calling me he/him

forget passing, i dont even look like im even trying to present fem; theyre not even seeing me and thinking "transfem", they just look at me and see a guy in a dress and treat me accordingly

i dont know what im doing wrong but it hurts to know ive failed so badly and that ill probably never be treated as fem by randos in general

im sad

hello cybersquadlings,

given recent events, we are going to defederate fosstodon.org from all CyberSyndicate instances in 24 hours.

it was recently discovered that fosstodon has a far-right moderator. when presented with evidence of this, the administration of fosstodon said they were keeping him on as a moderator despite him being a fascist.

at this point, obviously, regardless of the mod's activity level, the admins are openly willing to harbor fascists and those of other queerphobic/racist/etc ideologies in their spaces. this makes fosstodon inherently an unsafe, untrustworthy instance to have federate with our instance full of queers and poc.

this is a dangerous centrist ideology (it's called being a collaborator) that has plagued FOSS spaces as long we can remember. allowing fascists into a space because of the "merit of their contributions" means the genocidal rhetoric they yearn to spread is implicitly corrupting every aspect of your organization, and this tolerance of the intolerant allows the fascists to get their wish of driving all of us out.

there is no reason any queer, poc, neurodivergent, etc should feel safe talking to a fosstodon user.

no apology or change in policy from fosstodon will be sufficient to make us believe its sincerity. once a collaborator, always a collaborator.

the reason for the 24h delay is to give anyone on fosstodon time to take action to maintain connections by migrating instances.

thank you for reading!

^fuck ^centrism

should see a performance boost on this instance thanks to KaSo :D

the watermonger is here to turn the water back on!

no idea whats up with dot lol. thats the only one we dont self host and we havent heard back from our provider yet ​:neodog_sad:​

i have quite the backlog of tasks related to instance emoji, but ive been super busy. i promise ill do it soon!

i had been in diapers 24/7 for like 6 months but now im staying with the inlaws and im just. not ready to take that leap yknow. even though i want to be 24/7 forever, i just cant bring myself to live like that around them. so now even days like today when im back at my apartment, im not padded and it makes me sad lol i gotta get back to living at my place so i can be how im supposed to be

teenage me would never have guessed she would grow up to spend a not insignificant amount of time thinking about sucking dick

another day, another batch of reports against valerie. get over it or just remote suspend, i see no problem with valerie's posting. it's totally fine to tag anything as whatever, theres no sanctity to them and acting like there is is just nimby shit.

#tomato #woodworking #nvidia #birds #travel

every diaper for the last three days has had at least one tape rip while im putting it on. ive worn three different brands in that time and it keeps happening. wtf. is it the weather?

the instance is fixed and processing 190k inbox jobs lmao enjoy the waterfall of posts for the next 30min

it's fixed enjoy the waterfall

colorful stage's difficulty numbers are weirdly scaled. im working on FCing all lv23 songs and there are some ive been stuck on for months and some i get first try. it's a very wide range of difficulty in just one level.

they had to come inside to check a thing, im so humiliated by how cluttered our place is -_-

yo what up isnt it so fuckin awesome we get to be trans and do trans stuff. so few transes in history have had this opportunity, we are the lucky few and need to live extra awesome lives of celebrating one another and ourselves, as a conduit for the otherwise lost queer spirit of those who couldnt be so lucky. love yourself with the passion of ten thousand hearts. fuck yeah being trans. i love you all

oh hey happy second birthday to this instance!

no, youre the one who needs a change only 45min after the last one 😖

updated

i miss so many notifications on this account thanks to the lack of push notifs :/

gay

gay

been thinking about going to grad school. not because of the merit of a degree, but because college was the only time in life i wasnt deeply, crushingly lonely and isolated

look, if one of our users is a transmedicalist, we want to know, and will ban accordingly. but a report of "theyre a transmedicalist, the offending posts were on facebook"... you see how that is nothing, right? rather, worse than nothing; it reads like targeted harassment via false reports. im not gonna violate a user's privacy by seeking out their facebook and scrutinizing it for problems. your report needs to bring receipts, or you need to be someone whose word i know i can trust. otherwise you have effectively reported a user and cited nothing, and a nothing report will be confidently ignored.

if you did that report, youre welcome to do it again, but without proof i will just ignore it again.

tomato

post

happy 140th birthday, leftism!

day 107. it just feels so normal and default now. ive realized that when i have to pee, the idea of using the toilet doesnt even enter my mind. and i am at a point where i often wet and immediately forget i did it. im still not going in my sleep though. im super excited for that to start, i wonder how long itll take...

im so happy :3

eepy

dot lol still down :( we're powerless to fix it afaik, need to hear back from the provider

fediiii

"moderator inactivity warning" my ass, ive been checking it in moshidon because i cant run this tab and anything else on any of my machines

aaaaa leak :(

Admin Announcement!

tonight at midnight EST (9pm pacific, 4am for brits, 6am for germans) we will be taking the following instances offline until they can be safely patched of an apparently startling and widespread vulnerability:
• cyberpunk.gay
• seattle.pink
• kulupu.pona.li

dot lol is not hosted by us and its patching will be handled by the provider at an unknown time.

we on staff dont know what the vulnerability is at this time, but we expect other parties to make writeups on it at a later point.

#fediAdmin #adminAnnouncement

tonight's read: Against the State by James Stout

eepy

dot gay is back up and patched

#fediAdmin #cybersyndicate

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