soph :3 🇺🇦

can't believe I missed saltydkdan getting regirocked on deltarune chapter 3 stream yesterday💔

always missing funny shit like this somehow dawg💔💔💔

sigh, i guess i'm gonna reinstall it because, as much as I would love to move from windows, my laptop doesn't really work well with linux in terms of gaming, so it's not like I have a lot of choice
like, yeah, emulators & games that can run on linux natively run just fine on it, but running steam games through proton isn't really viable for me unfortunately​​

RE: https://transfem.social/notes/akqqs7wz1hxw000h

everything may suck ass but I got my favourite chocolate ice cream, so i don't care for now​​

anyway...
damn, it's already been a month since I got here​​
time really flies fast, does it...

damn, just decided to tweak some things on my website and somehow spent almost 2 hours while doing it​​

ughhh, can't believe my struggles with windows are finally over​:neofox_melt:​
at least it boots up much faster compared to how it did previously​​

wow, windows on my laptop decided to fuck itself over and now can't boot properly​​
welp, it's a sign to finally move to linux I guess

not gonna lie but I feel kinda proud of myself for remaking my website from scratch
like, yeah sure, there's not much, considering the previous iterations but still
it's just feels... good I guess? knowing that I wrote and designed the website by myself​​

...I'll never EVER try to set up an VPN server on DigitalOcean again.
idk what went wrong there, but I didn't even started setting it up because I COULDN'T FUCKING CONNECT TO IT AT ALL​:neofox_scream_angry:​
the server didn't respond to me at all. why? hell if I know
eventually even web console refused to connect to it for some reason, so I just gave up
ugh, now I have a fucking headache from trying to figure out why the fuck I can't connect to the server​:neofox_melt_sob:​

rouge the bat if she was woke: "all the world's GENDER is mine to KEEP~"

...just discovered you actually can replace code in multiple files without going through all of them and copypasting the code.

I feel so stupid rn​:neofox_melt_sob:​

ughhhh i hate it when my whole body hurts :(

so eepy and tired...​:neofox_flop_sleep:​

wow, one of my phones decided to randomly fuck up its own wifi connection until I set a different dns...​:neofox_sip_nervous:​
either my ISP's dns died randomly or my phone decided to fuck with me (which isn't surprising since I use a pretty old version of LineageOS on it)

...okay lmao, while I was writing this I switched to DHCP again and it started working just fine😭

dunno what just happened but okay.

man, i'm so fucking terrified of the fact that I'm gonna be 20 years old this year
like, WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M ALMOST TWO DECADES OLD ALREADY?!​:neofox_0_0:​

hey, so... just wanted to say that I'm also on @meanbeansoph@critter.cafe now!

still gonna post here though, it's just now I will be posting my yapping on either of them whenever I feel so​​

phew, finally updated the website​​
which means I can go back to being lazy again​​

deltarune... in two hours and a half... im scared​:neocat_nervous:​

ughhh, i can't fucking believe I got into osu AGAIN

my love for rhythm games is going to kill me someday...

damn, suddenly got inspired to continue making one balatro mod I started and then abandoned, but ughhhh...

that means I need to familiarize myself with both lua and smods before actually doing anything, which is, uhh... not my favourite thing to do...​:neofox_nervous:​

wow, everything happened mostly how I imagined: Infinite got his ass whooped by taking the lenses from him and then just vanished without a trace

who would've thought​​

really hope they brought him back not to just forget about him afterwards because like, what was even the point of doing this then, if he showed up for just 2 episodes

(also chaotix didn't got paid again, are you kidding me-💔)

bleh, finally woke up, but at what cost​​
still sleepy af though​:neofox_drowsy:​

really wish wetdry.world had registration open but oh well... gonna wait until they'll be open​​

just spent the whole day remaking my website from scratch and setting up account on git.gay​​

feeling so productive right now! /j

oh no... it's deltarune today for me already...
scary...​:neocat_nervous:​

still can't stop thinking about deltarune chapter 5
like, damn, that chapter was peak as fuck
I don't think I ever had so much fun playing it as I was playing the previous chapters​​

man i really wish i didn't watched newest video from saltydkdan
could've live my life without ever knowing what the hell rodfellows is, but here i am...

curse you, saltious donkey kong daniel​:neofox_angry:​ /nsrs

just beat Gravity Circuit and...
I honestly have no idea what to say except that it's so fucking peak​:neofox_cry:​
can't believe I had this game sit in my backlog for months just to beat it in 5 hours​​

the roaring knight? phhh, more like the roaring FRAUD, am i ri-

SWOON

baron shows up so much in my balatro runs I feel like I should file an restraining order against him at this point

phew...
man, I'm so tired after fucking around for an half of day with reinstalling windows...​:neofox_drowsy:​

the urge to properly start learning lua just to make an accurate as possible recreation of sonic 1 on love2d​​

fucking love deltarune chapter 5 so far, but omfg the secret boss is PISSING me off​:neofox_sip_glare:​

there's NO FUCKING WAY this thing was uploaded not only just 20 YEARS ago, but also on my fucking birthday😭😭😭

bleh, maybe playing deltarune for six hours wasn't a good idea at all...​:neofox_drowsy:​
not regretting doing this though.
swishes my totally-not-big fluffy fucking tail​​

just finished setting up a mirror from github and... I already outdone myself in my own stupidity​:neofox_melt_sob:​

me: why the hell I can't mirror this god damn repo?!
my github token: idk I can't do shit here (like literally)
me: wha-
looks in tokens permissions
it has access to fucking nothing
me: ah.​​

RE: https://transfem.social/notes/aoeaoc1ohk500i9j

feeling so shitty rn and the only thing that can save me is either a new parappa game (which isn't happening any time soon) or putting my face into someone's boobs​​

damn, I guess I owe an apology to btrfs, I was unfamiliar with its game​:neocat_nervous:​

"tomorrow I'll surely start doing things that I planned long ago!"

does absolutely fucking nothing

"okay but tomorrow I 100% will start doing them!"

still does absolutely nothing

ugh, being alive so fucking sucks, bleh
I don't know how am I still being here when I have nothing to do here, no purpose, no hobbies, nothing. even friends... well, not quite. I do have some friends online, but still... they're more of "people I share interests with & talk about them", so I still feel pretty alone... especially when I feel like an outsider in there...

...I honestly don't know what to do anymore. all my life is basically slowly falling apart piece by piece and I have zero fucking idea where to start cleaning this whole mess...

...and the worst part is that I KNOW what I want to do, I HAVE interest in many things but for some fucking reason I can't get myself do them! coding for example. I'm still interested in learning some programming languages, but every time I feel like doing it something always comes up irl or my brain straight up refuses to remember anything...
I'm honestly so tired of all of this bullshit...

...really wish life could be a bit easier in some ways...

...maybe if I weren't such a coward I'd killed myself long time ago, but here I am, still alive and stuff...

...whatever, I'll just go to sleep already, there's no point in thinking about all of this right now, especially at night.

(also sorry if my thoughts are bit hard to follow here, it's just already midnight for me and my brain is kinda awful at forming coherent sentences at this hour)

listening to funkscop' soundtrack is really painful sometimes because I still haven't gotten over the fact that it got cancelled back in November​:neofox_sad:​