Emma

So my town is being raided by ICE and the National Guard right now. They blockaded a whole street and abducted everyone at a farm. All this shit is happening blocks from where my mom lives and she’s afraid to leave the house. I don’t blame her.

One of my coworkers was telling me how heartbroken she is. I told her regardless of what we do, we have to make sure we never forget. I certainly won’t.

Hey all ❤️ Still alive, just been busy in my own corner of the world elsewhere.

Here are some highlights:

- Recently passed 200lbs total lost since I started my journey in July 2022. Still probably have another 100 to go but I’m happy with the progress.

- Advocated for myself and got a new PCP and Endo, both are infinitely better than my old ones and for once I’m satisfied with my care (except for Kaiser refusing to cover the cost of my estradiol, but I have years of stock so whatever)

-Negotiated a retention bonus with my employer. It’s been a long time coming but I think part of it is to make up for the bullshit I’ve been dealing with over the last year. It helps offset increased care costs.

-Speaking of work, basically 100% stealth at this point. And even my old colleagues seem to have forgotten about old me. It’s sad I need to do this but it’s for survival and I’m glad it’s working.

- Working qith my therapist and psych have been good. I finally have good dosages of sleep and anti depressants to stabilize me, which makes a world of difference.

- Learning on other social media that I’m actually sorta attractive. It’s still a strange feeling.

- Still madly in love with wifey.

In any case, reach out if you want to say hi. ❤️

Slowly being able to size into normal stores has been such a fun experience. Today I got a new work pencil at Brooks Brothers, a work dress at Banana Republic and a casual skirt at American Eagle. All stores I’ve never shopped at before. ❤️

Our beloved Frasier went peacefully at the vet: Wifey and I were there with him at the end, although she was petting him as he passed and all I could do was sob uncontrollably in the corner.

I miss him so much already. At least he’s now with Blue our other kitty we had to put down almost two years ago to the day.

Restarted therapy today. It was a great first session. Looks like we’ll be having them every two weeks for about 45 minutes a session.

And even though we didn’t really get into anything deep, just being able to talk to someone was making me teary-eyed. I didn’t realize how much I missed this opportunity, and I hope I can take advantage of it.

@elin@lgbtqia.space 😘