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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️

@NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
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Older trans woman, academic, teacher, researcher. Former engineer, former analyst, former administrator. Avid cyclist. Occasional woodworker and leatherworker and coffee roaster and beer and mead brewer. Trying to be a writer, both academic and non. Love sci-fi and fantasy.

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Joined March 03, 2023
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 3mo ago
It is Day 27 of Pride. Like most people, you will do the best you can under the circumstances. It's what most of us try to do. As an LGBTQ+ person, this comes with added pressures, that you must be perfect, that there is no room for error. We feel like we have to be perfect, that each mistake will be scrutinized and condemned. Unfortunately, life doesn't work that way. Variation happens. Mistakes happen. You will fail people sometimes. And they may damn you for it. Try to do good anyway. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:#lgbt #pride #trans
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
It's morning. Just contemplating the day. One odd bit about emotions post-transition is just how much more nuance there is to them. Emotions largely felt like a bludgeon pre-transition - joy, or anger, or sadness. Post-transition, these emotions get weird, y'all. Today, I feel good, at peace, but sad as well, with the occasional sprinkle of anger; I've been on the verge of tears a lot in the last 24 hours or so. Emotions post-transition are like taking someone who's only ever eaten McDonald's food their whole life, and giving them a beautifully complex meal, like a nice curry or mole sauce, to try. It boggles the mind, sometimes. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:#trans #transgender
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
Replying to
@courtcan There is a very good reason why, in my undergrad-level International Business class, when hostilities broke out,I spent about twenty minutes going over the history of international relations with Iran, starting with The Great Game, continuing on with Mossadegh and the coup that gave the Shah near-absolute power, to the Islamic Revolution and the Hostage Crisis, to the uneasy detente that lasted until recently, to the effects of the blockade. I do this to show that there’s trauma on both sides, to show that America’s hands are not clean in this, and to show that the blockade was completely foreseeable. Because chances are, before that moment, those students probably had no clue of the history behind all of this. Where would they have learned it?
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 3mo ago
Replying to
@faithisleaping@anarres.family A common refrain: “AI might be used for (task they are vaguely familiar with), but it will never be useful for (task they are experts in) because of (nuance in task)”.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago

Realizing, after a friend of mine made a request for her own field, I probably should ask this.

Does anyone know of a university within the European Union (I have EU citizenship) that's going to do a faculty search next year in operations research / supply chain / logistics / management sciences / international business / business ethics or a similar field?

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 4mo ago
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@JoscelynTransient@chaosfem.tw I open the silly with a hairstyle in desperate need of a wash and comb:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 3mo ago
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@Suzdal92@beige.party The suit looks worse than the pool. 👔
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago

There was a really cool moment in today’s bike ride. We sometimes pick up riders at random on our rides, people riding who see us and want to join. So another rider joined us halfway today. When we got t our destination, as we talked, he started pointing at us: “Now I know why you’re here, and you’re here, and you’re here, and you’re here…”.

Thing is, we’re a queer cycling group. And I wasn’t one of the ones pointed at.

@faithisleaping@anarres.family recently spoke of the desire to be invisible sometimes - that, even if we don’t woodwork, the ability to just be a girl is nice. I worry I don’t pass sometimes, that the world is just being polite.

It was nice to just be a girl in a crowd for once - to know I was just seen as a girl in the crowd.

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago

Magasplaining v. When someone who clearly gets their information from factually-questionable conservative media sources tries to correct or explain something about your area of expertise or line of work.

Used in a sentence:

“That old lady tried to magasplain to me about how what’s wrong with education is all a leftist conspiracy! Geez, I was only referencing the negative impact COVID had, not some Qanon crap!”

(And yes… this quite literally happened to me today.)

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago

Something I wrote for my International Business students, as the semester closes.

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You could spend your entire career, your entire life, in the Rochester area. It's a nice place to live, a good place to settle down, raise a family, build a life.

But you don't have to.

You could stay entirely in New York State. Maybe find a job in Albany or Buffalo, maybe get a job in the City. The City is a lovely place to work and live, once you get used to it and understand the rhythms and rules of how the city works.

But you don't have to.

Statistically speaking, other than perhaps the occasional business trip, you quite possibly will spend all of your career in the United States. For most of my life, the United States was the beacon of democracy and freedom and enterprise; while it was never perfect, it strove to be an exemplar for the rest of the world to emulate. For many people, America is still the place to be, and you could potentially spend your entire life and career here.

But you don't have to.

There are more things in heaven and earth than can be found within the borders of this country. The world is out there. Lives far from these borders await if you're willing to go out there. Languages, citizenships, cultures, these are all barriers that can be circumvented or overcome to set up a career almost anywhere in the world.

If you want to.

***

#business #education #immigration

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Impossible_PhD@hachyderm.io And the ex-Catholic in me can't help but respond, "And also with you." 😁
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@aizuchi Those of us that have spent enough time in Iowa know there's PLENTY of room for a Beltane fire. And those of us that spent enough time in Iowa wish we'd had the wisdom to do exactly that back then. 🔥
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@JoscelynTransient@chaosfem.tw with all apologies to S.E. Hinton… Ponyboy?
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Impossible_PhD It's not been every group for me... it's largely depended on the situation. There are cases where I definitely felt like I was doing the heavy lifting, and some where.... not so much. It largely depended on the situation. With me, there's a lot of insecurity around friendships because I moved when I was a child, had the usual difficulty of making friends in a new place, and then the ones I did make seemingly changed overnight. And no, friendships aren't supposed to feel transactional. 🫂
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@MsDropbear42 @ireneista @MelissaBearTrix And, of course, the best response to that - at least, if it's about 3:34 or 3:35 AM... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgDDbpmB-Ng

25 or 6 to 4 (Steven Wilson Remix) [Edit]

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 4mo ago
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@JoscelynTransient@chaosfem.tw .... I heard about this a few months ago. And yes; this ruling is absolutely a pile of ammonia-overloaded pig shit. (You know, at some point we need to have a contest to see who can come up with the most creatively vile insult to describe MAGA...)
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@revoluciana@chaosfem.tw I remember when Ivermectin was an amazing success story, helping to combat river blindness. It's still used for that purpose to this day. Like most things touched by MAGA, Ivermectin's reputation has suffered somewhat since then. 🤦‍♀️
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@static @ics Speaking as a business professor... you're even more right than you know.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 2mo ago
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@sashag@anarres.family This was very much me. Except for working out, for about the first six months after I went full-time, I always wore skirts. It took awhile for me to get to a point where I could go, "Okay, I feel comfortable enough as me to wear pants again."
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 2mo ago

Bad thought of the day, one I had in all seriousness before I internally facepalmed.

"You know, given the cyclosporiasis outbreak right now, it's a really shitty time to experiment with vegetarianism."

🤦‍♀️

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 2mo ago

@JoscelynTransient@chaosfem.tw

“Don’t cry for me, Argentina…
The truth is I never left you,
All through my wild days,
My mad existence,
I kept my promise…
Don’t keep your distance.”

Yeah; singing that while making stabby seems… ominous. 😳

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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@faithisleaping :QueerCatHeart_Trans: :QueerCatHeart_Trans: :QueerCatHeart_Trans: We are so much more than what we show. And yeah; lying to ourselves killed us for so long.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
Replying to
@Willow I cannot tell you how much I squee'd when I found out that the film and book The Warriors had been redone into a musical, co-written by Lin-Manuel Miranda, with a bunch of characters recast as women, including the Warriors and Cyrus. (Please note: Swan was gender-flipped. Mercy was not. 😊 )
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@sky@thetransagenda.gay Oooh. That is a fun aesthetic, isn't it? 🖤
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@revoluciana@chaosfem.tw You're looking beautiful, girl. 💖
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 4mo ago
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@sky@thetransagenda.gay This. My most recent character is a mead maker bard who just wants to improve her craft. That she has to save her entire region to do this is just incidental.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@TonyaMarie 🫂 🫂 🫂 There's days where the spoons just aren't there. 🥄
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 3mo ago
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@sashag@anarres.family Hello, Sasha! :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Natasha_Jay@tech.lgbt I thought it was Mandelson Identity Disorder (MID) that they had? After all, they're pretty MID, if you ask me...
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 3mo ago
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@sashag@anarres.family Good morning, Sasha! :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@aizuchi @crowbriarhexe The native Iowans I know on the Fedi are plenty cool - and yes, the “owing the world an apology” deconstruction is standard. (And if you include others from the desolate areas of the Midwest like Nebraska, it gets even cooler!).
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@JoscelynTransient 🫂 💖 We love you for being you. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@JoscelynTransient The current times created a contradiction. It's both ripped me away from the religion I grew up in, and made me wish the religion really was legit, that there was a Heaven and Hell. Because, frankly, the thought of some people burning in Hell for what they've done... it's almost a necessary comfort in these times. 🔥 🔥 🔥
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Lana Why does Bond need to be a man at all? Bond as a trans woman would be amazing. I'm reminded that, when she was in acting school, Abigail Thorn was considered a James Bond-type.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 4mo ago
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@IsabelB@mastodon.ie @oldladyplays@wargamers.social The concert was amazing. Genesis’ work in the early to mid 70s - from Nursery Cryme to The Lamb Lies Down on Broadway - was breathtaking. So… with that in mind, imagine the opening of the second act starting with the words “Can you tell me where my country lies… “. The songs tend to be fairly long - it’s prog - so there weren’t many, but my goodness were there gems. Moonlit Night, Cinema, Supper’s Ready, Mama… 😊
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 4mo ago
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@oldladyplays@wargamers.social Meeting up with a couple of trans friends on Friday and enjoying a Steve Hackett concert. And tomorrow (Monday the 25th) will be an anniversary of sorts, as my transition began 7 years ago! And all the hugs, and may you find joy in this difficult time. 🫂 #transjoy
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@vv@solarpunk.moe My go-to: “It’s medical.”
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@ics @static Yep. Because the UK couldn't bear to be parted with "their" oil. And, of course, the US just had to help out. I'm sensing a pattern here...
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@PurpleStephyr Congratulations, Steph. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@sonjdol @eunews I promise. :akko_thumbup:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Liza Well, it's been about 6-1/2 years since I started HRT. Still amazes me sometimes how these emotions work. And yes, there's a lot to process. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Daojoan@mastodon.social I needed this today. Thank you.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Liza ..... I'm not sure? Time? Processing? Eventually, your life is just your life. Your emotions are just your emotions. To give a quote, written by a pair of incredible trans folks: "Why do my eyes hurt?" "You've never used them before." Your emotions right now are kind of the same way. Eventually, you adjust, but it's a little wild for awhile. :QueerCatHeart_Trans:
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
Replying to
@MicroSFF "Cthulhu Shrugged" needs to be the name of a prog metal band. 🎸
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@SummerKnights@chaosfem.tw Awww.... I had fun figuring out how to enter a diaeresis into my keyboard! 💖
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Her_Doing Thanks. Will probably repost tomorrow, after a good night's sleep.
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@glassblowerscat @what I was thinking of Haibane Renmei when I read this post...
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@Impossible_PhD 🫂 🫂 🫂
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@SummerKnights 🫂 Hugs, girl. 🫂
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Nicola Elle 🏳️‍⚧️ @NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
· 5mo ago
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@snowyfox I got lucky - incredibly lucky. I qualified for dual citizenship in an EU country under jus sanguinis, and the total cost to activate that citizenship ended up about $1000. Even this is more than many people can afford - and, again, this was incredibly lucky, a combination of accident of birth and really doing my homework, desperation to find a way. A friend of mine I know can also qualify under jus sanguinis, for her own country of ancestry, but it would cost about $3000, and this is more than she feels she can afford. As a former department chair at a university in the United States, I was tangentially involved in the visa and citizenship process for those I worked with. Easily over $15k - and this was long before Trump started jacking up the prices. In many cases, as you point out, dual citizenship or "golden visas" in countries, even those welcoming, cost north of $100k. The reason they have this value is because of a cruel question. What is the value of a human life? Borders are killing people. People kill for them, and people are killed by them. And it's well past time we start acknowledging that.
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